In the jaws of the beast...

Well now I work for my company but with the Outsourced Service Partner trying to make life easier for them. My job at the moment is to train them, answer questions they might have and coordinating the work with my soon former employer. I am trying to make myself irreplacable but I guess that is abit of an utopian goal. My CV is at least freashly updated and ready to be sent out to any new open position that might be of interrest.
Yesterday me and my wife were at a concert with a polish singer called Anna Maria Jopek. The style is like mixing Jazz and Icelandic band Sigur Ros (one of my favorit groups by the way). I was pleased with the evening and it was very nice.
Not far til cristmast either...hoho!! :)

Outsourced.

Well it is no secret for you now probably that I don't have long left at my current work. I have known about the fact that my job has become redundant (actually since mid august). The last few months, december and january I will spend on site with Dell's OSP and help them 'go live'. It is an interessting experience and I also get a lot of experience in manageing others aswell as training others. Maybe that will lead somewere?? Who knows!?

Moreover my jobsearch are going slow at the moment. Not applied for new ones in a while. But I guess it is time to start trying again. My aim is either programming and/or consultancy. Consultancy might not be the best market now though since the economy is slowing down. I could aswell consider Business Analyst or similar, which if I should be honest, does not sound so bad at all. However considering my background maybe programming will be something I would like better even though I am sure I would like both.

Now back to work, breaks over...

Groningen nostalgia....

....so Katia and me went to Gronigen this weekend to visit since her old officemate was defending his thesis and graduating. At the same time we took the opportunity to re-live the memories of the past were our story had its first steps in 'normal' life (Well since I met my wife normal is hardly the correct word, and to that I am glad).

We sleept over at Katias old spanish friend and had a really nice time. First time I have gotten drunk in quite a while, however I had no hangover to speak about saturday morning which was not exactly what my wife could say. Poor Katia, she was feeling soooooo bad. :)

But all in all a nice weekend, we both needed it.

Accepting the unacceptable...

Acceptable
1. worth accepting; satisfactory or, sometimes, merely adequate
2. tolerable; bearable

Human (adjective)
1: of, relating to, or characteristic of humans
2: consisting of humans
3 a: having human form or attributes
b: susceptible to or representative of the sympathies and frailties of human nature.

Unacceptable
1. not acceptable : not pleasing or welcome.

What is acceptable? And what are accepted of someone else when you have done something unacceptable? Is behavior of the human being acceptable? Is it acceptable to give in to human feelings, emotions and to fall for human weaknesses? Is it unacceptable not to do what is expected of you? If you are human is it not expected you will behave like one? Why is it not accepted to behave like a human if you accept the fact that you are one? Can you accept yourself being human? If you think someone else have done something unacceptable does the unacceptable things then become acceptable? Can you accept the unacceptable?? Can you... Do you... Human?!

Random thoughts

Shatter
To break at once into many pieces; to dash, burst, or part violently into fragments; to rend into splinters; as, an explosion shatters a rock or a bomb; too much steam shatters a boiler; an oak is shattered by lightning.

Trust
Assured resting of the mind on the integrity, veracity, justice, friendship, or other sound principle, of another person; confidence; reliance; reliance.

Despair To be hopeless; to have no hope; to give up all hope or expectation; often with of.

Love
A feeling of strong attachment induced by that which delights or commands admiration; preeminent kindness or devotion to another; affection; tenderness; as, the love of brothers and sisters.

Forgiveness
1. The act of forgiving; the state of being forgiven; as, the forgiveness of sin or of injuries.
2. Disposition to pardon; willingness to forgive.

I did not intend to hurt you
The way, I realize now, I did.
Your love means the world to me
And it always will.
I will do whatever it takes
To prove the same to you.
Ever since I met you
And your love enveloped my heart
I knew for sure that
A new chapter in my life would begin from the start.
Forgive me for the hurt I have brought.
I have tried making it up to you through each little chance I got.
You have my love for now and forever.

Wedding bells!

Life takes a leap forward. On the 23rd of August 2008 me and Katia Ganda got married in Riva del Garda in Italy. It was the happiest day of my life. After the honey moon was in Mexico. We flew from Amsterdam to Mexico City, were we stayed 2 days. Then flew to Tuxla were we had rented a car and drove to a lovely city in the mountains called San Christobal. There we also stayed two days. Then onward to Palenque, Champeche, Merida, Cancun and eventually Puerto Aventuras och Playa del Carmen were 5 days of beachlife was enjoyed. A wonderful and marvelous trip. Now back in Amsterdam the temperature is somewhat different. ;)

I hope now I will have some time to visit Sweden (over a weekend probably) and I know we need to go to Italy for wedding pictures and some more stuff. At the moment the priority is to move from the house in Amsterdam to a new one in Zaandam that we bought about a month ago. There is still some minor ajustments to make but in principle we are ready.

A big hug to all of you out there.