What!!! Have I been gone that long....

....ehum yes. Oh sorry folks. I have been busy. Well turned 30 last week...30...three zero...and it feels...normal. (?)... Yes just normal. There was no apocalypse.

Otherwise life is floating. The spring is well underway and almost all types of trees have gotten their leaves. I felt the spring as well...in my nose. Damn pollen. Ahh well better the winter at least.

My Italian classes have stopped. Now I have taken 3 courses in total and I am on level C1...university level was it...right. Non sono securo insoma.

And now a closing in Swedish: Simma lungt!

New Year...new....yes what is new?

So, new years eve...another one. In a few hours it is only 3 moth and 17 days left of my life...I cannot say it but it is a number between 29 and 31 and it belongs to the set of natural numbers (for those with mathematical knowledge).
I have been offered a job...as a trainer for the people that 'come after me'. But the salary is about 400 less brutto which becomes about 200 netto. 200 euros netto...i.e. 2000 sek...i.e. not good.
I have to think of what to do because I need a job and with 1 month left to go nothing else is in sight...so maybe it is just to take it and a.s.a.p. change. *sigh*

I need to start learning the dutch language because otherwise the works are limited to this pay...at least it feels like that.

We will see what comes along.

Happy New Year!!

In the jaws of the beast...

Well now I work for my company but with the Outsourced Service Partner trying to make life easier for them. My job at the moment is to train them, answer questions they might have and coordinating the work with my soon former employer. I am trying to make myself irreplacable but I guess that is abit of an utopian goal. My CV is at least freashly updated and ready to be sent out to any new open position that might be of interrest.
Yesterday me and my wife were at a concert with a polish singer called Anna Maria Jopek. The style is like mixing Jazz and Icelandic band Sigur Ros (one of my favorit groups by the way). I was pleased with the evening and it was very nice.
Not far til cristmast either...hoho!! :)

Outsourced.

Well it is no secret for you now probably that I don't have long left at my current work. I have known about the fact that my job has become redundant (actually since mid august). The last few months, december and january I will spend on site with Dell's OSP and help them 'go live'. It is an interessting experience and I also get a lot of experience in manageing others aswell as training others. Maybe that will lead somewere?? Who knows!?

Moreover my jobsearch are going slow at the moment. Not applied for new ones in a while. But I guess it is time to start trying again. My aim is either programming and/or consultancy. Consultancy might not be the best market now though since the economy is slowing down. I could aswell consider Business Analyst or similar, which if I should be honest, does not sound so bad at all. However considering my background maybe programming will be something I would like better even though I am sure I would like both.

Now back to work, breaks over...

Groningen nostalgia....

....so Katia and me went to Gronigen this weekend to visit since her old officemate was defending his thesis and graduating. At the same time we took the opportunity to re-live the memories of the past were our story had its first steps in 'normal' life (Well since I met my wife normal is hardly the correct word, and to that I am glad).

We sleept over at Katias old spanish friend and had a really nice time. First time I have gotten drunk in quite a while, however I had no hangover to speak about saturday morning which was not exactly what my wife could say. Poor Katia, she was feeling soooooo bad. :)

But all in all a nice weekend, we both needed it.

Accepting the unacceptable...

Acceptable
1. worth accepting; satisfactory or, sometimes, merely adequate
2. tolerable; bearable

Human (adjective)
1: of, relating to, or characteristic of humans
2: consisting of humans
3 a: having human form or attributes
b: susceptible to or representative of the sympathies and frailties of human nature.

Unacceptable
1. not acceptable : not pleasing or welcome.

What is acceptable? And what are accepted of someone else when you have done something unacceptable? Is behavior of the human being acceptable? Is it acceptable to give in to human feelings, emotions and to fall for human weaknesses? Is it unacceptable not to do what is expected of you? If you are human is it not expected you will behave like one? Why is it not accepted to behave like a human if you accept the fact that you are one? Can you accept yourself being human? If you think someone else have done something unacceptable does the unacceptable things then become acceptable? Can you accept the unacceptable?? Can you... Do you... Human?!

Random thoughts

Shatter
To break at once into many pieces; to dash, burst, or part violently into fragments; to rend into splinters; as, an explosion shatters a rock or a bomb; too much steam shatters a boiler; an oak is shattered by lightning.

Trust
Assured resting of the mind on the integrity, veracity, justice, friendship, or other sound principle, of another person; confidence; reliance; reliance.

Despair To be hopeless; to have no hope; to give up all hope or expectation; often with of.

Love
A feeling of strong attachment induced by that which delights or commands admiration; preeminent kindness or devotion to another; affection; tenderness; as, the love of brothers and sisters.

Forgiveness
1. The act of forgiving; the state of being forgiven; as, the forgiveness of sin or of injuries.
2. Disposition to pardon; willingness to forgive.