New Year...new....yes what is new?

So, new years eve...another one. In a few hours it is only 3 moth and 17 days left of my life...I cannot say it but it is a number between 29 and 31 and it belongs to the set of natural numbers (for those with mathematical knowledge).
I have been offered a job...as a trainer for the people that 'come after me'. But the salary is about 400 less brutto which becomes about 200 netto. 200 euros netto...i.e. 2000 sek...i.e. not good.
I have to think of what to do because I need a job and with 1 month left to go nothing else is in sight...so maybe it is just to take it and a.s.a.p. change. *sigh*

I need to start learning the dutch language because otherwise the works are limited to this pay...at least it feels like that.

We will see what comes along.

Happy New Year!!

In the jaws of the beast...

Well now I work for my company but with the Outsourced Service Partner trying to make life easier for them. My job at the moment is to train them, answer questions they might have and coordinating the work with my soon former employer. I am trying to make myself irreplacable but I guess that is abit of an utopian goal. My CV is at least freashly updated and ready to be sent out to any new open position that might be of interrest.
Yesterday me and my wife were at a concert with a polish singer called Anna Maria Jopek. The style is like mixing Jazz and Icelandic band Sigur Ros (one of my favorit groups by the way). I was pleased with the evening and it was very nice.
Not far til cristmast either...hoho!! :)

Outsourced.

Well it is no secret for you now probably that I don't have long left at my current work. I have known about the fact that my job has become redundant (actually since mid august). The last few months, december and january I will spend on site with Dell's OSP and help them 'go live'. It is an interessting experience and I also get a lot of experience in manageing others aswell as training others. Maybe that will lead somewere?? Who knows!?

Moreover my jobsearch are going slow at the moment. Not applied for new ones in a while. But I guess it is time to start trying again. My aim is either programming and/or consultancy. Consultancy might not be the best market now though since the economy is slowing down. I could aswell consider Business Analyst or similar, which if I should be honest, does not sound so bad at all. However considering my background maybe programming will be something I would like better even though I am sure I would like both.

Now back to work, breaks over...

Groningen nostalgia....

....so Katia and me went to Gronigen this weekend to visit since her old officemate was defending his thesis and graduating. At the same time we took the opportunity to re-live the memories of the past were our story had its first steps in 'normal' life (Well since I met my wife normal is hardly the correct word, and to that I am glad).

We sleept over at Katias old spanish friend and had a really nice time. First time I have gotten drunk in quite a while, however I had no hangover to speak about saturday morning which was not exactly what my wife could say. Poor Katia, she was feeling soooooo bad. :)

But all in all a nice weekend, we both needed it.

Accepting the unacceptable...

Acceptable
1. worth accepting; satisfactory or, sometimes, merely adequate
2. tolerable; bearable

Human (adjective)
1: of, relating to, or characteristic of humans
2: consisting of humans
3 a: having human form or attributes
b: susceptible to or representative of the sympathies and frailties of human nature.

Unacceptable
1. not acceptable : not pleasing or welcome.

What is acceptable? And what are accepted of someone else when you have done something unacceptable? Is behavior of the human being acceptable? Is it acceptable to give in to human feelings, emotions and to fall for human weaknesses? Is it unacceptable not to do what is expected of you? If you are human is it not expected you will behave like one? Why is it not accepted to behave like a human if you accept the fact that you are one? Can you accept yourself being human? If you think someone else have done something unacceptable does the unacceptable things then become acceptable? Can you accept the unacceptable?? Can you... Do you... Human?!

Random thoughts

Shatter
To break at once into many pieces; to dash, burst, or part violently into fragments; to rend into splinters; as, an explosion shatters a rock or a bomb; too much steam shatters a boiler; an oak is shattered by lightning.

Trust
Assured resting of the mind on the integrity, veracity, justice, friendship, or other sound principle, of another person; confidence; reliance; reliance.

Despair To be hopeless; to have no hope; to give up all hope or expectation; often with of.

Love
A feeling of strong attachment induced by that which delights or commands admiration; preeminent kindness or devotion to another; affection; tenderness; as, the love of brothers and sisters.

Forgiveness
1. The act of forgiving; the state of being forgiven; as, the forgiveness of sin or of injuries.
2. Disposition to pardon; willingness to forgive.

I did not intend to hurt you
The way, I realize now, I did.
Your love means the world to me
And it always will.
I will do whatever it takes
To prove the same to you.
Ever since I met you
And your love enveloped my heart
I knew for sure that
A new chapter in my life would begin from the start.
Forgive me for the hurt I have brought.
I have tried making it up to you through each little chance I got.
You have my love for now and forever.

Wedding bells!

Life takes a leap forward. On the 23rd of August 2008 me and Katia Ganda got married in Riva del Garda in Italy. It was the happiest day of my life. After the honey moon was in Mexico. We flew from Amsterdam to Mexico City, were we stayed 2 days. Then flew to Tuxla were we had rented a car and drove to a lovely city in the mountains called San Christobal. There we also stayed two days. Then onward to Palenque, Champeche, Merida, Cancun and eventually Puerto Aventuras och Playa del Carmen were 5 days of beachlife was enjoyed. A wonderful and marvelous trip. Now back in Amsterdam the temperature is somewhat different. ;)

I hope now I will have some time to visit Sweden (over a weekend probably) and I know we need to go to Italy for wedding pictures and some more stuff. At the moment the priority is to move from the house in Amsterdam to a new one in Zaandam that we bought about a month ago. There is still some minor ajustments to make but in principle we are ready.

A big hug to all of you out there.

Life goes on.

21st June at 01:00 in the night my grandfather passed away peacefully on one of the most magical nights on the year, Midsummer. My memories of my grandfather are all dear to me and I am happy that I last week was able to see him a last time before he passed away. I know that for him it was time to go and that he wanted to se his Signe again. I think of my family back in Sweden and hope that they are allright. It is with all my dear memories that I will now remember him. I am in some way happy even though my heart is heavy and I know he is now in a better place then he was.

Documentary mornings.

I have this morning on way to work listened to a documentary about the Catalina crisis from the Swedish national radio program 3, (SR P3). It is about when the Russians shot down a Swedish plane over 'international' water. Were exactly the DC 3 plane were when it was shot down is not know other then to the Russians and to the Swedish air force. However it is very interesting to listen to. We were very close to a conflict with Russia at this point. For sure it was one of the most dangerous situations for Sweden during the cold war. I have started to download a pod-radio documentary every morning. I have so far listened to The SAS crash at Gottröra, and about the Congo crisis in the early 60'ies which I must say was so far the most interesting, the stories from Swedish personnel and UN soldiers paint a very different situation then I had previously known. I can recommend to do this if you have an mp3 player or mobile phone that can play mp3's.

About time?

So well. I know I have not been that active in the last few months but here is another post.
What is going on? Well I work, I sleep, I plan the wedding, i worry that I have not been home in Sweden to see my parents, my brother and sister etc. And the truth is that there is time if you want to find it. And I will find it so...homecoming in June I guess. Cannot say early or late but June.
Otherwise the Netherlands is like usual....rain....rain....clouds...rain.......rain......you get the picture? Well it actually are not that bad but if you come from the Swedish east coast like me well that is what you think....for example a person from GB or from Norway (Bergen for example) would probably think the weather is quite OK here.

I will in the future try to be more active in the blog, I know I have time for that to. :)

cheers ppl.

Were have I been.....really??

Added that information at the bottom of the page. Enjoy!

Alot to do...and alot have been done...

...well now most things are starting to come together. We have finished all the paperwork for the wedding. Katia has a dress. I have a suit. Flowers have been booked. Church have been fixed and a place to have the luch also. What to eat is yet to be fully decided. All of this...already and still its about 4 moths left. So when is the BIG day....well the 23rd of August of course.

I have also finished my first italian course and on monday I start the next one. My italian is much better (and it should be) then previous, not only that. It is much better then expected!!

The spring is arriving in Holland. Keukenhof (the flower park) has been open for a few weeks and the leaves have just started to come out on the bigger trees. Some small bushes have already got their leaves and also some of the smaller trees have bright white, pink and fuxia flowers. Weather has been nice this weekend but still Holland is Holland. Tomorrow it might be raining.

Wedding.

Even though the invitations have not gone out yet I have prepaired a webpage that contains some useful information for the attendants. The page will be updated with links and information as the preparations proceeds. The address is www.katia-and-pg.blogspot.com.

NEWS! NEWS! NEWS!

I have not written in a while now, because I have had a lot of things to think about. And I guess I should say it right away...

I AM GETTING MARRIED!

I am almost chocked myself when I say it even though I have know about it for some time...well I should know I mean. I took the decision. It will happen on the 23rd of august in Riva Del Garda in Italy. An Italian wedding...what comes to mind is the movie: "My big Greek wedding" (I think it was called) but I think and hope that it will not be like that ;).


Anyway. A lot of things need to be done to the wedding. First there will be all the invitations to the wedding and the invitations for people to the dinner after. Only a selected few will be able to attend the dinner (few is in relative sense) already over 100people are expected, but of course everyone is welcome to the ceremony in the church. I will put up more about this later on Katias and mine common blog (will be online soon, link will be available here soon also).
Until next time!